I am feeling very emotionally exposed as I post this...I am going to say everything you aren't supposed to when it comes to whether or not you are ready to have a baby.
This is a post that I have been wanting to do for sometime now in response to a lot of questions and comments we have received about this particular topic over the last (almost) 3 years of marriage.
Many of you already know, this is a very sensitive topic for me. That is why I have such a hard time responding to your questions when you ask me, "So when are you and Michael gonna have a baby?" It's not a simple answer, so I have concocted a complex, detailed answer here so that I may begin referring people to if those questions don't stop. Maybe business cards with the blog website...hmm. ;-D
For the record (before any misunderstandings and/or hurt feelings begin), I could not be happier for those of you who are enjoying your roles of parenthood or about to become parents for the first time. I am proud to know so many wonderful parents who are sometimes exhausted, are great role models, and love their children. I am truly thrilled for those of you who are expecting and can't wait to see all of the squishy family pictures of the baby when it arrives and the years of family pics and status updates regarding your little families! I am honestly very happy for each and every one of you!
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
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Saturday, November 27, 2010
Thanks. Giving.
Thanks...
Thankful that I am 30. Why shouldn't I be? What an amazing thing. People didn't use to live this long in the past. I can't wait to begin this chapter. For life, I am thankful.
My husband. Wow. What an amazing man. No one knows him the way I do. The wonderful person I am fortunate enough to call my husband...he has brought joy in immeasurable ways to me. For Michael, I am thankful.
Thankful that I am 30. Why shouldn't I be? What an amazing thing. People didn't use to live this long in the past. I can't wait to begin this chapter. For life, I am thankful.
My husband. Wow. What an amazing man. No one knows him the way I do. The wonderful person I am fortunate enough to call my husband...he has brought joy in immeasurable ways to me. For Michael, I am thankful.
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Reconnecting
Today and really, this week, has been such a wonderful time of reconnecting.
I finally got back in touch with my sweet grandmother this morning when I woke up. I had been repeatedly calling her over the last couple of months and had been unable to get her on the phone. Today I finally got to talk to her and reestablish conversation about how she is doing and what is happening in her world. She was so very pleased to report that she had been winning Bingo and prizes at the senior center. So cute!! I miss her so bad but it was so great to talk to her and hear her smile...
I finally got back in touch with my sweet grandmother this morning when I woke up. I had been repeatedly calling her over the last couple of months and had been unable to get her on the phone. Today I finally got to talk to her and reestablish conversation about how she is doing and what is happening in her world. She was so very pleased to report that she had been winning Bingo and prizes at the senior center. So cute!! I miss her so bad but it was so great to talk to her and hear her smile...
Friday, September 24, 2010
Love defined
1 John 4:8- "Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
My first anniversary of wedded bliss with my amazing husband is fast approaching and it has me reflecting on our marriage and what love means to me.
This week I decided to do something special for my husband and send him a message every day, telling him something about our marriage that shows love. I loved doing this because it really made me consciously think about what it is about our marriage that works and why it works so well for us.
It got me thinking about how we love one another, not just Michael and I as a couple but all of us on this little planet called Earth. How we love one another as friends, family, strangers, coworkers, etc. Then, of course, I thought about how God love us all. He loves us as if He were blind. A blind love. Acceptance of us as we are. Love for us even when we are wrong, selfish, etc. This is the kind of love that Michael shows me every single day. What a blessing!
I try my best to love completely and with all of my heart. At times, this has been to a fault and has caused me a lot of pain before in relationships with family, romantic relationships, friends, and even strangers. But by knowing God the way I do, I see that to love fully and completely is to strive to be more like Him. He has blessed me with a wonderful companion in this life. And I can truly say that I LOVE him more now than the day I married him.
My first anniversary of wedded bliss with my amazing husband is fast approaching and it has me reflecting on our marriage and what love means to me.
This week I decided to do something special for my husband and send him a message every day, telling him something about our marriage that shows love. I loved doing this because it really made me consciously think about what it is about our marriage that works and why it works so well for us.
It got me thinking about how we love one another, not just Michael and I as a couple but all of us on this little planet called Earth. How we love one another as friends, family, strangers, coworkers, etc. Then, of course, I thought about how God love us all. He loves us as if He were blind. A blind love. Acceptance of us as we are. Love for us even when we are wrong, selfish, etc. This is the kind of love that Michael shows me every single day. What a blessing!
I try my best to love completely and with all of my heart. At times, this has been to a fault and has caused me a lot of pain before in relationships with family, romantic relationships, friends, and even strangers. But by knowing God the way I do, I see that to love fully and completely is to strive to be more like Him. He has blessed me with a wonderful companion in this life. And I can truly say that I LOVE him more now than the day I married him.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
What a difference a month (or two) makes!
Well, well, well. Where to start.
The short sale home we were hoping for didn't work out. The selling bank's investor decided to pull a last minute increase on the price of the home we were trying to purchase and we decided that it just wasn't worth that to us. So here we are. In Punta Gorda, living with my in laws and no home to call our own.
We have continued our search for a new home and have made many offers but nothing has panned out yet. Michael and I are getting very disillusioned with the real estate buying process and are constantly having to remind ourselves (and each other) that it will all be worth it when we get our home. But morale is very low on that front.
As for my career path, I have interviewed for SO many jobs here it's sickening. Unfortunately for me, the job market here in Florida is flooded with applicants. One job I interviewed for only had 2 positions and there over 300 applicants!!!! When I didn't get the position, the lady on the phone told me I was in the Top 5 of those interviewed. I guess that should have made me feel better, but it really didn't, especially since I knew I was overqualified for that job. It just made it worse to know that I couldn't get a job that I could easily have done. That was what hurt the most.
Most recently, I took a test and interviewed for a position with the State of Florida and am STILL awaiting news as to whether or not I will be offered the position. The job is the same job I was doing in TN working with those who are applying for government assistance but there is an added perk of eventually being able to do it from home. To me this is extremely appealing, especially since Michael and I would like to start a family within the next few years. This would allow me the rare opportunity of being a mother, caring for our child myself, and still being able to bring in a full-time income. Very appealing indeed.
Pretty much and to be frank, I am "chomping at the bit" to see what is going to happen next. This whole "hurry up and wait" stage of life is driving me crazy. To go from such a fast paced existence, to a slower one, to being single for so long, to being married, to hurrying up to get things straightened out to buy a home, then to have the deal change at the last minute, then to test and interview for a job, only then to have to wait for weeks to find out if I am being offered a position........all of it is enough to make a crazy person and sane. And I have to say for me, maybe it's vice versa (if I was truly sane to begin with). :-D
On top of all of that, my in laws are extremely wonderful to let us stay here, but it's difficult for me to be comfortable with this arrangement. Keep in mind, I have lived on my own for 11 years and this to me, is maddening. That is not a reflection on them. Just that I don't have any of my furniture, belongings, or most of my clothes. Everything material (and yes, I recognize that is not what's most important in life!) that I have accumulated in my life is locked away in a storage unit. Along with that, I feel that my identity as a self sufficient, independent person is lost. I have previously judged people my age who were living with family as lazy, moochers, etc. Now I know, and hope you all will see, that is just NOT always the case. Sometimes there are extenuating circumstances that put people in that position that are beyond their control.
And to make me feel even worse, our first wedding anniversary is toward the end of this month, my 30th birthday is in November, and I don't want to still be living here for those events.
I think that's all I have for now...stay tuned.
The short sale home we were hoping for didn't work out. The selling bank's investor decided to pull a last minute increase on the price of the home we were trying to purchase and we decided that it just wasn't worth that to us. So here we are. In Punta Gorda, living with my in laws and no home to call our own.
We have continued our search for a new home and have made many offers but nothing has panned out yet. Michael and I are getting very disillusioned with the real estate buying process and are constantly having to remind ourselves (and each other) that it will all be worth it when we get our home. But morale is very low on that front.
As for my career path, I have interviewed for SO many jobs here it's sickening. Unfortunately for me, the job market here in Florida is flooded with applicants. One job I interviewed for only had 2 positions and there over 300 applicants!!!! When I didn't get the position, the lady on the phone told me I was in the Top 5 of those interviewed. I guess that should have made me feel better, but it really didn't, especially since I knew I was overqualified for that job. It just made it worse to know that I couldn't get a job that I could easily have done. That was what hurt the most.
Most recently, I took a test and interviewed for a position with the State of Florida and am STILL awaiting news as to whether or not I will be offered the position. The job is the same job I was doing in TN working with those who are applying for government assistance but there is an added perk of eventually being able to do it from home. To me this is extremely appealing, especially since Michael and I would like to start a family within the next few years. This would allow me the rare opportunity of being a mother, caring for our child myself, and still being able to bring in a full-time income. Very appealing indeed.
Pretty much and to be frank, I am "chomping at the bit" to see what is going to happen next. This whole "hurry up and wait" stage of life is driving me crazy. To go from such a fast paced existence, to a slower one, to being single for so long, to being married, to hurrying up to get things straightened out to buy a home, then to have the deal change at the last minute, then to test and interview for a job, only then to have to wait for weeks to find out if I am being offered a position........all of it is enough to make a crazy person and sane. And I have to say for me, maybe it's vice versa (if I was truly sane to begin with). :-D
On top of all of that, my in laws are extremely wonderful to let us stay here, but it's difficult for me to be comfortable with this arrangement. Keep in mind, I have lived on my own for 11 years and this to me, is maddening. That is not a reflection on them. Just that I don't have any of my furniture, belongings, or most of my clothes. Everything material (and yes, I recognize that is not what's most important in life!) that I have accumulated in my life is locked away in a storage unit. Along with that, I feel that my identity as a self sufficient, independent person is lost. I have previously judged people my age who were living with family as lazy, moochers, etc. Now I know, and hope you all will see, that is just NOT always the case. Sometimes there are extenuating circumstances that put people in that position that are beyond their control.
And to make me feel even worse, our first wedding anniversary is toward the end of this month, my 30th birthday is in November, and I don't want to still be living here for those events.
I think that's all I have for now...stay tuned.
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